rambles on coffee breaks

nihilism isn't healthy but its also some sort of order in chaos of it all. from the abstract constructs to the fluid and nocturnal...sifting though ideas, anxiety of time, your existence and at the same time internalizing everything, because...."how are you?? =...fine." it feels funny, is it better to drift or to fight the current or get lost in imagination and lose touch of reality, i promise i wasn't on drugs creating this lol but if i was to name it.....it would be "the drift"